because you actually need real person not an inanimate

life's been hard. harder, to be honest.

so many things. happy and unhappy. proud and disappointment. sudden excitement and tiredness. every feelings that are best and can only be expressed with either a simple smile or tear.


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adik-adik kelas 3 SMA gw di HighScope udah mulai pada berburu universitas. udah ada yang keterima di prasmul, trisakti, unpad, etc padahal ini masih akhir semester 1 tapi masa depan sudah terjamin. tapi some masih mau nyoba in other univeristy. they real dream university. some are going to locals such as UI and ITB, some are going abroad. idk why but somehow gw ngerasa seneng dan bangga. Like...these people I know, are smart people in their interest. there will be engineers, diplomat, movie director, designers, entrepreneurs etc from this batch. for them, I wish a very best of luck.

club martial arts (MA) sama photographynya juga kemarin baru screening for their movie called HDD. I've watched the behind the scenes video and I know this movie is gonna be great. unfortunately I havent watched it. pretty curious. gw akan jadi sok tahu di sini. film ini sangat menyita energi dan waktu. mereka syuting sampe malem dan ngedit. and other things yang tadinya dikira bakal menghambat film ini. tapi I know once this movie selesai, their hardwork will be paid. and it is. gatau kenapa pas malem itu gw tau kalo filmnya bakal screening besok, gw nangis. dan gatau kenapa gw seneng banget they finally made it. padahal ikut bikin filmnya pun engga. tiap denger cerita, pasti berita jelek mulu. tapi then, these kids have proven us that they're not just ordinary kids. cant wait to watch the movie.

proud and happy.


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have your ever feel not being supported? then you feel alone? empty? and everyone you expect to be there to talk to with aren't there?

you dont know what to do.
you dont know who are you going to talk to cause it's getting harder to trust in people.

this is my first semester. turns out, living a college life is not easy. at least for me. family matter. no compromise. independent and freedom I demand seems farther. disappointment. and tiredness.

may I say I cant bear this alone?

it doesn't have to be an advice. I just want to be listened.

I start missing people. again. or I always do.


tears.